Dear Diary

1.04am and all I'm thinking about is how on earth I can make time pass faster just so I can see my boyfriend again on Friday. I know I said I wouldn't publicize my relationship so much anymore or blog much about it, but I feel like I just must today since well, my blog's pretty much an open diary. It's open, but nevertheless still a diary. And I'd want to look back one day remembering all the special moments in my life when I just type www.loveinyourarms.blogspot.com ! Hahah.

So this weekend with my boyfriend has been nothing but amazing. Our first weekend together since forever and honestly I never thought my life could be any happier than it is right now. Sure we have our ups and downs, but which relationship doesn't right? Every relationship is bound to have problems, but it's whether the both of you are strong enough to pull through it together. Shafiq and I.... We've come a long way. Almost 2 years to be exact. Feels like such a short time though.... I almost can't believe that it's already been 2 years. I remember how I used to tell myself I'd never find love or how I'd never find the right guy because of all my previous failed relationships. So many dates, boyfriends etc, and all of them used to last for only a month. :( I used to think there was a problem with me too. Haha, like maybe nobody liked me because I'm psychotic or something. HAHA. That I was the fickle one, or that maybe I just wasn't good enough. Till I met Shafiq. He changed my whole world. :)

He made me believe in Love, and most importantly he made me feel loved. He loved me for me despite how difficult I can get. I still remember how he told me I was his soul mate barely a month of knowing each other. Back then I guess I had my doubts and yeah, I did think that even if I got into a relationship with him, it'd probably fail like the rest. But he sure did surprise me. A month became 2. 2 became 3, then 4, 5, 6.... and before we both knew it, we celebrated our 1st anniversary and in less than 2 months it'll be our 2nd anniversary. So what if there were break ups right? No matter what, we still had each other in our hearts.

Being where we are now sure wasn't easy I must say. Bitchy girls along the way... rumours.. gossipers... It was a tough journey, but we made it. One way or another. :) Though unfortunate circumstances tore us apart close to 9 months. 6 months the 1st time, and then 3 months the 2nd time. 2 times we were apart, but somehow, we still found our way back to each other.

Reading the letter that my boyfriend gave to me before he left for camp yesteday. The sweetest letter he ever wrote to me which kinda got me tearing up a little too. AND, I'M NOT SOMEONE WHO CRIES EASILY. hahah. I'm a tough nut to crack k. heh

"I know that I want to live my life with you. I've never been more sure. Because I truly love you Sofia. I love you. " - Shafiq.

I don't know how long this'll last but I'm hoping for forever. Afterall, what else can you do but hope and pray right? If it's meant to be it's meant to be. :)

Right now all we can do is live for the moment and enjoy everyday like it's your last.

Lots of Love,

Sofia Dendroff