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Dear Diary |
Posted on Thursday, April 26, 2012 @ 3:35 PM
with 0 Comments  I know I've not been blogging so often lately and I'm sorry for abandoning this space! :( I've just been pretty caught up with a lot of things lately. For one, my laziness. I know I know... it's no excuse. Hahah, but fret not, I'll be bringing my laptop with me to Germany!! So hopefully when I have the time, I'll just do mini blog updates from over there! 2ndly, I think if you're a follower of mine on Twitter you would have probably seen plenty of tweets about me being all hyped up for Germany! If you found those tweets annoying after some time, I apologize too! It's just that... it's pretty much gonna be my first time in Europe, thus... the major excitement. I just can't help but feel excited to see how Germany is like for myself.. how the food is like... the people... the buildings.. the CASTLES! Gah, just thinking about entering a real castle is making me all warm and fuzzy inside. Sometimes when I think about all these things, it just really makes me wonder to myself... "Why couldn't I have been born in a different country/place? Say France....Rome? America? Greece etcetc". I'm sure most of you have thought about that at least once in your life. Then I came to the conclusion that the only reason people in Singapore always talk about wanting to get out of Singapore is because everyone around them is always saying things like "Singapore is boring. Singapore sucks.". So much so, that you start to really believe it for yourself. I mean think about it, when foreigners come here(well, most), they pretty much love this place. Singapore may not have Snow, it may not have castles and such.. but it's safe. Right? Whenever I start to feel sad that I wasn't born in a different country like America or even ENGLAND..... I just tell myself... "Well... it could've been worse". What if I had been born in places of poverty such as Africa? Or what if you had been born from sex slavery? That would have been much worse wouldn't it? So I guess I can say that I still am pretty glad that I was born here in Singapore. I mean it may not be the best but it definitely isn't the worst right? :) The next thing that I wanna talk about is basically just on the general topic of love and relationships. A lot of the time, I get endless amount of questions from troubled teenagers/young adults on the topic of love. I won't say I'm an expert on this because it's not like I'm answering your question as a happily married woman or anything. I'm answering your question as a person who has probably also been in your shoes and therefore, I understand how you probably feel. Insecurities. Jealousy... dishonesty... traits we all hate in a partner and the list probably goes on. I'm no perfect person myself. I do have my insecurities(although I prefer keeping this to myself because I wouldn't really want the world to open up my scars y'know. Insecurity is just something that only you, alone, can deal with and solve. No one can make you feel better about yourself but You.). As for me... well.. This year I really don't want to focus too much of my time and energy on love or relationships. I've come to the realization that life is so much more than just what relationships or rather in my case... boys have to offer. I think that what makes life complete.. are the people that you meet. Your family... your friends... your dog... your cat... your horse... your cow... You know. These things. So yes boys and girls, it's perfectly alright to be single. It's not something to be embarrassed about. If the right one comes, then yeah, he or she will come. But for now while you're still living and breathing, why not make the best of the situation and just have fun with your life? Look at me, I'm traveling the world this year and catching up friends that I haven't in so long! I don't think I'd have that opportunity as much if I were in a relationship. Right? Just be strong and know that despite whatever knocks you down, you gotta get up, stand on your two feet and tell yourself that you're strong and that Life damn well goes on! :D If revenge is what you're aiming for. To get back at the person who broke your heart. Well, crying ain't gonna work lemme just tell you. Ignorance and just being happy usually does the trick so much better! Hahaha I know because I've tried this before. and yeah, it did work. LOL. (sshhhhh....) The next topic I wanna touch on is FRIENDSHIP. I always believe that friendship is never easy. If you think friendship is easy then well you probably have never had any true friends. True friends are really one in a million. I think to this day, I still am a little skeptical about knowing who I can trust and all. I mean okay... Sondra. I know she's definitely a true friend because we've known each other since we were 6 years old. Skeptical because I have been backstabbed more than once and it definitely isn't a very pleasant feeling. And just recently, I felt like that happened to me... again. Sigh. is it so hard to just have true friends? I know who my true friends are. And I will tell you who I trust entirely with my heart. Not many but I trust these few with my heart and my soul. Sondra. Namira. Falila. Yeah, that's probably about it. Why? Because they've always always always been there for me. And I guess... with them I always just feel at ease. With them, I can totally just be myself. I don't care if people want to call me a loner, or if people want to say stuff about me, because hey, I do know who my true friends are. And it doesn't matter if I lose 10 friends, 20 friends.... Having 1 true friend is equivalent to having 100 friends. Maybe even more. And honestly, if you're even a friend, you'd never talk behind that person's back. Ever. You'd always feel happy for that friend's achievements and success. Never jealousy. You understand that person more than you understand yourself. That's what being a true friend really is. To be more than just a friend. To be like.... family to that person. Like a brother or a sister. So yeah la, a really personal blog entry. There's alot more that I wanna say but I'll probably save that for tomorrow or another time. Thanks for reading thus far! Hope everyone's having a great day and remember, Happiness begins with you. Only you have the power to make yourself happy. No one else has. Wish me a safe flight? ^^ I love you guys. Lots of Love, Sofia Dendroff Labels: dear diary Post A Comment |
